When I put the kids to bed last night, this was the first song that came on our Pandora station:
(Eyes On Fire – Blue Foundation – Twilight Soundtrack [with lyrics])
After a comment exchange yesterday with Jayne the song just further confirmed how I see myself and how I see women like us. Fire-carriers. Sort of like this:
She dropped a match.Then, seeing what had happened,swiftly walked away.“I’m so afraid of fire, you see.”While there behind her,Helpless,hapless,wildly dancing,He perishes in flame.
But, I need to be honest, I feel the heat only half the time; the other half I feel purely ignored and/or completely misunderstood.
Is this just how life is? Sometimes you feel like a value to society, and sometimes you feel like everyone wishes you would just fade away? Or is it just me? I’m too fucking sensitive, maybe. Probably. I just need some real in-person adult stimulation… Yes! Stimulation would be great right now.