I don’t know why or how, but a draft of this post got semi-published today when I stepped away from the computer. But then it never really showed up as published, did it? I’m confused, sorry. But here is the post:
I tried to avoid the “I’m still here– the kids are keeping me busy– don’t forget about me” type of post for this extended break in blogging here at filled and fooled, but I wanted to let you know I’m still here. I think you knew I was still around even though I missed a couple Boobdays and TMI Tuesdays. I just re-blogged a story that I wrote a while ago, because I read it the other day and thought it was hot and fun and needed a bit of touching up. A few future stories may spring from that one, and I’m excited about that.
But to update you on my life, besides the holiday busyness:
We’ve had a few encounters I chose not to blog about because they didn’t end like I imagined they should. I do want to be authentic, and genuine in this blog because there are not of other areas in life I can. So, with each encounter I can either choose to keep the story to myself, embellish/change the story, or tell you about what happened and include the reality that there are not-so-fun turns in some of the situations. Anyone have any preferences?
Last night my husband and I embarked on a new part of our swinging relationship together. This time he was the third entering a couple’s home. I was back at home with the kids, keeping warm with a tight belly and a list of things to do to keep me occupied. He got to see what it was like to share in the pleasure a wife and her bi husband bring to another man.
He is going to write up an account of what happened because it seems pretty kinky and fun. Even though I wasn’t there…And I plan to write about my feelings, because I think even though I felt lonely while he was gone I still don’t feel jealousy. at. all. I will explain more in my future post touching on the following points:
1) I feel good about this. For many reasons.
–It relieves a lot of the guilt that I was the one getting most of the attention since the beginning of our swinging adventures.
–I was not ready to be with this couple, not feeling the same sorts of attraction and I genuinely wanted to allow him to experience something new. Going with my feelings and trusting that it wouldn’t challenge our bond was a nice and new feeling.
–There is an odd relief to know what it is like to be excluded in my lover’s sex. Maybe I had an irrational fear of being cheated on before…. But right now I don’t feel like he would ever do that because he has been given a freedom few men are given by their wives and if he did have sex with another person that would not be horrible, it just wouldn’t.
–He had fun, he felt happy. His ending wasn’t that beautiful, made me laugh and he was willing to let me share the experience on the blog with you. I hope he lets me include all the details (yes, honey, even that last part).
–Before he left we talked about boundaries, but as he got there I changed my mind and asked him to avoid fucking her. They respected my wishes.
–There are photos that my husband has, and I may look at them if I choose. So far I’m not feeling like looking.
–I see his appeal from another woman’s eyes.
2) This does not mean I am allowed to go out to fuck another couple, this couple, or another man and I am fine with that.
3) And more… so keep an eye out for the posts about this experience coming this week.
Have a great Sunday, and like I said in my original post that I sort of published this morning, “GO NINERS!!!!”